Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Why Blog?

Main Entry: con·science
Function: noun
Pronunciation: 'kän(t)-sh&n(t)s
Etymology: Middle English, from Old French, from Latin conscientia, from con scient-, consciens, present participle of conscire to be conscious, be conscious of guilt, from com- + scire to know -- more at SCIENCE
1 a : the sense or consciousness of the moral goodness or blameworthiness of one's own conduct, intentions, or character together with a feeling of obligation to do right or be good b : a faculty, power, or principle enjoining good acts c : the part of the superego in psychoanalysis that transmits commands and admonitions to the ego
2 archaic : CONSCIOUSNESS
3 : conformity to the dictates of conscience : CONSCIENTIOUSNESS
4 : sensitive regard for fairness or justice : SCRUPLE
- con·science·less /-l&s/ adjective
- in all conscience or in conscience : in all fairness


There's something out-of-whack when I wait this long to write an entry; so I look to conscience for a guide. Pretty thorough definition for 'conscience' from the dictionary - better than I expected.


On the DO YOU BELIEVE?message board, wars still blaze between the atheists and the 'Believers.' Lately the name calling has seemed to reach an even higher decibel level than earlier. I wonder if the approach of the Holidays induces unwanted anxiety in the combattants? Think I'll make sure I get in the mood for Christmas by rereading the Dickens ever-so-famous story featuring Scrouge.


Children seem to totally understand Christmas (and I suppose Hanukkah)


Main Entry: Ha·nuk·kah
Function: noun
Pronunciation: 'hä-n&-k&, '[k]ä-
Etymology: Hebrew ha nukkAh dedication
: an 8-day Jewish holiday beginning on the 25th of Kislev and commemorating the rededication of the Temple of Jerusalem after its defilement by Antiochus of Syria


and often get as much if not more pleasure from giving as receiving. (Forgive me for knowing little or nothing about Hanakkah celebrations)


See? I'm out of practice and need the dictionary to help me along.


To one and all Happy Holidays!! Hey, I'm not jumping the gun: Thanksgiving is only eight days away!


 


Barry



 


 


 

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

A 2007 movie that came and went....zip....

Purely by chance I just watched, yesterday, two amazing, worth-watching movies, both dark but gripping nevertheless.


I'll start with the documentary, BRIDGE. This one has, to be candid, really taken me aback. The subject is suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, you know the one Drake could have seen as he sailed by hundreds of years ago. (S.F. doesn't have a Drake Hotel for nothing.)  Yes, the camera lingered on the Bridge over so long a period it actually catches people repeatedly returning to the Bridge and finally jumping off. The most flamboyant is a fairly young male with long black hair and wearing all black clothes. Twice he climbed over the waist high steel railing but didn't actually jump until the second time. He had a rehearsal in other words. On the way down he did a sort of swan dive and landed horizontal ensuring, knowingly or not knowingly, instant death. At 120 miles per hour it'd be like hitting concrete. Another jumper landed feet first and survived. He is given a long interview in which he is most candid and engaging. I think it was unusually generous of him to submit so graciously. Glad to be alive I suppose.


Relatives and friends of the dead also give interviews. The documentary must have been a labor of love. There is nothing prurient or irreverant intended in the documentary, nor is any intended in this heads up recommendation: to watch, not to jump!  Ha!


Actually I'd read some years ago an article in the New Yorker about suicides from that Bridge. And recently I read in the paper that jumping may be made much more difficult, if not impossible, by adding fencing.


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I've searched my conscience for evidence that when I hitch-hiked to Wyoming and back on a weekend by beginning after I walked across the Golden Gate Bridge, did I have suicide in mind? No memory of entertaining suicide can be discovered. But, I was perhaps in desperate need of a change of scenery. I left out earlier, in an Entry, that in Wyoming I knocked on the door of a brothel, very late at night. I had to walk up some wooden stairs. Quickly, immediately after knocking, I went back down the wooden stairs as quietly as possible. I was only seventeen. Somehow, though, I knew what the naked light bulb at the head of the stairs, near the door, meant.


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A movie with a strangely similar ambience opened and vanished last March (2007) so fast I missed any and all mention of the film. It's called Reign Over Me, starring Adam Sandler and Don Cheadle (the latter the Black head of detectives in CRASH.) When it came out critics turned sour apparently because of a plot detail than seems to have been ommitted from the DVD which I've seen now four times beginning yesterday. Adam Sandler plays a dentist off his head from the death of his wife and three very young children in a plane crash. From the DVD I got that they were killed in a routine plane trip from NY to Boston to see relatives. But when released there was a line saying that the plane crashed on 9/11, out of Boston I assume. That one line seems to have ruined the movie's chances of being taken seriously. For the story it matters nothing where the plane was going. Planes crash, and almost never from terrorists. It's billion to one chance even today.


The movie was written and directed by Mike Binder. Produced by Jack Binder. One of the roles is played by a 'Binder.'


Critics jumped on trivia such as New York law prohibits engine driven scooters, a vehicle excentrically ridden at all hours by the deeply disturbed, shattered, Adam Sandler character whom kind dentist played by ever-skillful Don Cheadle at the heights of his powers tries to assist.


Movies about kindness grip me. Reminds me of the line spoken by Blanche: "I've always depended on the kindness of strangers." (Sure hope I have that word perfect.) Cheadle puts up with a man 'drowning' who apparently wants to drown. Swimmers know that rescuing someone in the water can be treacherous because the drowning person in panic is likely to drown you too!


Two fascinating women's roles are played, says the critics, by otherwise "supermodels." I didn't object to their credits good or bad, I just got a bit confused by the fact they looked almost the same. Their roles help establish how far gone Adam Sandler's character really is; all blandishments leave him cold.


The critics were right about one thing: New York City sure is made to look good, night or day. But, trust me, NYC for very young people; older people are happier elsewhere. IMO.


Barry



 


 


 


 


 

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Trumpetting the Obvious

The other day I watched a couple of baseball games for the first time in ten years, maybe much longer than that. I watched the Boston team outscore the Colorado team.  I had nothing on the result, no bets down, no regional loyalty, no knowledge of the game to influence me, just the fun of watching hugely skilled ballplayers doing their lucrative thing.


Sports writers across the country had other nuts to crack. Some were quoted in the LA Times, including their own sorehead who announced, much to my astonishment, that Boston bought, paid for, the World Series. Gee, I had no idea. A Chicago sports writer announced that Boston players had used trickery. I must have missed that part. I'll tell you what I did notice and that was how fair, and how enthusiastic were the Denver/Colorado fans who seemed to my uneducated eyes appreciative of all the fine plays by both teams. Made me rethink living in Denver. Splendid people in Denver I figure, Fair especially, in spite of the altitude. And it's so beautiful.


I was in Denver once, passed through while hitchhiking. In High School in San Francisco on a Friday after school I walked North across the Golden Gate Bridge and hitchhiked to Seattle, then hitched East to Wyoming, and back West to San Francisco. 


Madness, right? I was 16. I lived alone, but kind people, including truck drivers, helped me. Drivers must not fear picking up a child. Today my antics would get me killed, and probably very fast.


On Monday morning I was back in school missing not an hour of class time. I was accepted at all three of the colleges I applied to.


Have I paid back the blessings I received? I have not. Maybe an opportunity will show up, or I'll get ambition and create an opportunity.


Love it, love it all.....it's not forever....right?


Barry



 

Thursday, October 25, 2007

EVIL

Pyromaniac


Troll


Serial Killer


Butcher in uniform


.................................$#@&&& SO ON....


 


It has now been declared as fact: some of the San Diego County fire (killing eight) were the product of the crippled mind of madmen, pyromaniacs.


Barry


(....who resemble in their MO AOL trolls on message boards.)


Barry

 
"Dammit.  Don't you hate when people read

the earnest words you've written and then use

the comments to talk about themselves?!  

Sorry.  I'm conscious of it now."

 

[Comment from a "sorry" blogger directed elsewhere]

 

I do that all the time and will not apologize.

Helping to increase the volume of self-centered

self pity is not among my ambitions.

 

What staggers me is how many responses such

witless journal entries inspire. Only this minute, puzzling

over this Comment, have I come across a possible

explanation. Most people must shudder at the very

thought of talking about themselves let alone

having to actually do that. They oughtta get over it.

 

Actually, thinking further, how on earth can actual

conversation ever take place if each person does

only a soliloquy!? If Hamlet were to go on much

longer telling us his troubles he'd become a first class

boor. (In any case he needed to see a psychiatrist.

That scene in the closet with his Mother!???)

 

Barry

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

California Forest Fires

For UK j-land friends here's a few observations about the enormity of the currently raging forest fires in Southern California. At this very moment CNN is reporting 'EXTREME FIRE DANGER,' with winds reaching 75 MPH.  We are not threatened, even though the fires are within 30 miles or so, because we live three blocks from a fire station - with a fire engine and a fire truck - and because we live next to Glendale Memorial Park where there has been constant, for a century or more, vigilance against any possibility of fire.


In Malibu, damn near levelled, there's a college called Pepperdine. Know nothing about it. But wouldn't it be logical for that college to have a Forestry Professor, or even a Botanist?!? someone who'd have known enough to speak up about the tinder box that Southern California had become?! 300,000 people have been forced by the fires to evacuate.  In America there is, believe it or not, extreme pressure to conform, be like everyone else, don't make waves, and perpetually go into agreement with the majority. So, I deduce, at Pepperdine, a zero on the academic barometer, there is not now, and never has been, one single professor who spoke up on any subject all my him/her self. It's a Country Club. Today at breakfast they are serving cinders, ashes, and burnt meat, while all fluids served in baby bottles with nipples to suit.


Lake Arrowhead has lost hundreds of homes. They were ugly anyway, so that'll lead to improvement.


Pets. Can you imagine the number of dead pets!? The news covered giant turtles that were rescued, but not much else.  Those people must have had brain dead dogs; regular non-spayed dogs would have known far in advance that fire was coming, and set up a terrific racket.


There have been days, several days, of sympathetic clucking shown on TV; After a while all that 'sympathy' turns to rock hard sugar candy; so I leaven the meal with a touch of reality. Paint me Scrouge.


Barry


http://journals.aol.com/bbartle3/Vengeance/


Later, Tuesday Oct. 23  '07: Finally an academic is quoted on CNN as noting that new plant life in Southern California has contributed to the unprecedented fires all over the lower half of CA.  Over 500,000 people have now been virtually ordered to leave their homes.


Perchance did you happen to catch the up close and personal documentary about climbers to the Everest Summit?  That too aired today; I've been glued to the tube for far too long.  The moral dilemas that crop up on the climbs make for drama somewhat akin to abandoning one's home in a forest fire: It probable won't make the news, but for sure some will rather perish in their homes than live with having to be fully responsible for losing their home.  By staying in the building one theoretically endangers others. Similarly, if a climber meets someone still alive on their retreat, is one compelled to give up one's climb in an effort to save the life of a defeated climber who has no chance of living, helped, or not helped on their way down? I suspect for a Christian the instruction is to help no matter what.


Barry


 http://journals.aol.com/bbartle3/Vengeance/


 


 

Thursday, October 18, 2007

My son the singer, cont.

My seven month old son Mark
fights off sleep by making himself look
like a plough (aka plow?) with
butt in the air, head in the ground,
then screaming in a desperately
accusatory fashion as if it's all my fault.
He sleeps best in the car. The movement
is some kind of atavistic connection
to being inside Mother? He sleeps a
lot however. In the car he sings along
with Beethoven. Honest!  He had another
breakthrough in that, he finally got himself
to sing along in the Chorale section at the end,
proving how important is sleep, blessed sleep.


Barry
http://journals.aol.com/bbartle3/Vengeance/